The format of this post shall be a bit different than my usual explanation posts…
There’ll be a lot of spacing~
That is because I shall be writing in real time and not formulating my thoughts on a doc to paste here.
I’m hoping it shall mimic the feeling that I’m speaking to you guys directly.
Which I guess I sort of am, in a way…
Anyway, if you find it annoying my apologies in advance, but this is the only way I’m capable of expressing myself after not having written for so long.
*sigh* I honestly don’t know where the time has gone.
I haven’t even taken the time to properly thank you guys and respond to your comments on my last post… so I will be promptly doing so after I post this. *fingers crossed I hold myself to that*
Where do I begin… Oh, right: Happy New Year!
Wish I had more positivity to add to that, but I don’t, so let’s just jump right into this update. I myself am tired of making these, so I’ll do my best to keep it short.
Well, short for my standards…
As per my last update, I’ve yet to even open the reader. I’m hoping I’ll find some crack in my schedule soon to properly scroll down back down to October (which is around when I stopped reading) and work my way back up.
Speaking of October, that is also the last time I worked on Sight, with the pics from August… or earlier? Can’t remember at this point.
As you can see from my above screenshot, I haven’t even touched my blogging draft since before my last post.
Despite that, with regards to all the photos and writing for the chapter: they’re done.
The chapter is done.
I just can’t get myself to post it because if I’m being 100% honest, it’s probably the last chapter of Sight I’ll manage to get out.
There, I said it.
I feel like such a failure, yet again, but my computer troubles have mounted and honestly it’s not looking like my current one has much of a lifespan left to it…
Can you believe that?
Simply put, I can’t afford to kill it trying to run a game that labeling as un-cooperative is putting it lightly.
The few times I did manage to get it up and running after a complete uninstall and reinstall, followed by a manual re-installation of store content and downloads I needed, my gaming experience was atrocious.
So many errors and issues I don’t even want to attempt and find a solution for, or bother you guys with anymore.
After all of the hours I’ve devoted in my extremely limited free time attempting to fix it, I’ve now accepted that – at least, for now – I won’t be able to access the majority of the files and characters I’ve created for the purpose of Sight story-telling.
This is almost the exact same scenario I found myself in before starting, Sight. Didn’t expect to be reliving my history again so soon. But at least this time my computer isn’t dead. *knocks on wood*
Not trying to be dramatic or anything, as there are worse things, but I can’t say I’m not frustrated.
Which begs the question: What Now?
To be honest, I don’t know.
As I said, Sight is probably done… at least in regards to using the sims3 as a medium to propel the story at least.
Though I’ve had a million things to share and answers to give… For now, I’m moving forward under the assumption that I won’t be able to re-access what I need to and that’s that.
So what are my options… I either:
a) Write out the story without visuals (i.e. no screenshots)
b) Just summarize everything I’d planned to show without any excess details or dialogue. (i.e. quick “what would have happened” post)
c) Hold out on a possibility of salvaging something and procuring what I can through use of the computer of a friend (who also play sims).
I can say that right now, option c is probably not a good one, as the hours I would need to even get one chapter out wouldn’t be practical in terms of borrowing my friends pc. AND I’d hate to risk damaging her belonging in the process.
And for now… That’s all I’ve got.
Logging in to make this post, I took a glance at my stats over the past few months and felt so guilty seeing you guys check in only to be met with radio silence from me.
I hate failing yet again to finish something and making you guys play a waiting game, but I’m so so so thankful for all of the support and kind words and encouragement you guys have given me and continue to give me every time I bombard you with uneventful lengthy updates.
This community is honestly what makes working on writing for me so much fun and enjoyable, despite the continuous setbacks…
It’s also the reason why I’m having a hard time letting go, even though any sane person would have by now… I appreciate you guys so much. ❤ ❤ ❤
It seems fitting to share the last screenshot I managed to take in-game on here, so I shall:
If you’ve made it to the end of this: thank you ❤
Hope to speak with you all really soon ❤